“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.” ~C. S. Lewis
I started with the thought that nothing last forever, sometimes what we wanted in life somehow does not happened the way we wanted, it is a heart breaking experiences. It is something I really need to dwell, face, accept and embrace. I am not wanting to stay in such a way that all my pains would swallow the good things happening in my life. Few years from now, I may look things in a different way, but I really struggled to stay connected with my inner self, a kind of struggles that I should stick to what I believe. This is my way of coping up of all the failures, and may way of saying that we need to stand, we need to ACHIEVE MORE of the thing that is really our passion, love. My friend, Nogie has told me this and it shed me to tears, “I love you even if you are not a lawyer, I want you to be happy.” Nogie always helped me to be sane, to face the reality, her validation to my worth is what I really count of. She is a perfect example of a woman who is successful because of her passion and love. This is a message to everybody who are now facing failures and struggles, and thought they carry the whole world in their shoulder, alone, if I can do it, you can do it.Soar high and Aim high!!!
I will be posting more photos, taken through the years of my journey with the people I really love and care.
It’s been three years since I left and wave goodbye to my beautiful life and my friends in Quezon City, where I got to explore what I really wanted to do, I left with heavy heart but with so much love for the people who always welcomed me with opened heart and with hopeful dreams. They became my second home. It was a long-planned because I know I could be at my comfort zone while trying to pursue my own dreams. In doing so, I also had to move further away from the people I truly loved. They never left me. In fact when I started to make my dreams come true, they were there cheering me up. Maybe, life is not sometimes fair or let me say I always turned out not the way we wanted. There were so many things that triggered me to questioned His Will. But not sooner, God showed me how I am loved by many.
This blog is again my way of thanking all the people who are with me throughout my journey. It was the right decision for many reasons, now, every single day, I got the chance to dream and create a home that is safe and stable and secure and everything, where I could be the best of myself.
I simply want to recall every single moment, and this is the reason why I write- to try sadness into determination, solitude into remembrance . Why did it happen to me? I got the best people of my life, where if not of my failures and struggles, I would not have found them. I never thought remembering all those I have went through would put a smile on my lips. Yes, I gone so far, to many different place and most different kinds of people, most of them I chose to keep. What else I would ask for? I don’t have a perfect life, far beyond perfection, but honestly, the best thing that happened after so many failures is to be able to found love from this people. I was looking for love, I was preparing for that love to come, not realizing that for those many years of searching everything I wished for, I have already enjoyed it. Not everybody got to enjoy the twilight years of the parents, and I did, we did. I have different sets of friends from my law schools friends, to my DENR-LAMP and to my PNP FS family (Ate Rovie’s Family and Manang Dolorita), all of them made me experience unconditional love, love with no expectations but with respect and commitment. I wouldn’t be strong if I haven’t found them during those years when I thought I should be searching for love.
I never ran out from disappointments, but even now, as I look back I am ecstatic with pride of the journey that I took, I tried to take risks that most of the ordinary women does not want to take, I left my family three years ago to work in Manila, to run away from heartbreaks and failures- yet I could say I haven’t wasted my life of taking the leap because I learned so much and found a second home. This people molded me of what I became today. Yes, I found the love with a special person many years ago, but “I realized that at any given moment in our lives,there are things that could have happened but didn’t, the hand of destiny changes everything as they said”. It thought me that I could learn from those and that could even change me.
I am innocence in so many ways, a life whose innocence had opened my heart to all that was good, however, not everything and everyone who came in your life has good intentions, few just came nearer because they know they could benefit of having you around, it’s a share of sad story I just decided to put an end. As I look back those wasted time, I regret of not being so vigilant and too trusting, I may not have finally forget everything but one thing I most sure he is not worth keeping.
Now, I wished I would be with someone who could bring peace to my heart –someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that I would lose him the next day, the inner battle seemed to have already subsided and I don’t want to start it up again.
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